no excuses
I have realized, in my my life, I’ve made up excuses for things I shouldn’t have. I have turned my back at situations because I didn’t want to find the energy to deal with them. I lied. I have sacrifice my own credibility to cover for myself and my own miscalculating actions. Never thinking about the harm it may have on others but yet complaining on the pain they put me through. There’s a voice inside of me that tells me life should be what you make of it. This whole individualism movement that’s gotten me all twisted up. I became so lost within myself that I feel suffocated by own thoughts. I want to get away, to start over. I want to change, to better myself. To care for more than just myself. To not be selfish. To not lie. To not carry this weight inside me that keeps on dragging me down. I want to feel good about myself, just like before…..
